Never Ending by Martyn Bedford

Recently, I was lucky enough to read Never Ending by Martyn Bedford and I’ve already finished it even though I only started it on Saturday. This book follows our main character called Shiv who is tormented by her brother’s death on their family holiday to Greece. She believes that she was the cause of his death so she is checked into the Korsakoff Clinic which has unconventional therapy techniques. This book was absolutely amazing and I just loved it. Let’s get into the review.

Shiv was a good main character. She is tormented by guilt and she does a lot of crazy things throughout the whole book. I felt a lot of sympathy towards her because she had experienced such a traumatic events. The things she had to deal with at the clinic were very tough. I honestly wouldn’t be able to deal with that if I was in her circumstances.

We were learning about her brother’s death and the events that were leading up to along the novel as some chapters were set during the trip. I loved these chapters but I got slightly frustrated. When something slightly cliffhangery happened at these chapters then we would jump back to her time at the clinic and I would want to know what happened next in the other chapters. Also, we had to wait until about three quarters into the book to find out how the brother actually died and it was very annoying but it made me keep reading.

All the characters in this novel were very well developed even the ones we weren’t meant to like. I loved Declan, Caron, Nikos, Mikey and even Dr Pollard. I really loved all of them and the development that each of these go through throughout the whole book was fabulous.

The settings of this book were fabulous. Kryritos and the Korsakoff were both so interesting to read about and I found myself wanting to read both. Sometimes in the book, I wanted to go back to the other setting but for most of it I loved the setttings we were in. The way that Bedford writes it keeps you intrigued even though not much really happens for quite a lot of the start, since she is just starting at the clinic.

The readers get to know Shiv before and after her brother’s death and we all get to know Declan as a character as well which was amazing. I really learned to love him as a character and when we actually read his death I felt very sad about it even though I knew it was coming. It was great to see a teenager who had a very close relationship with her brother because in YA you don’t see that much. Their relationship was great and at times it actually reminded me of my relationship with my brother.

I definitely recommend this book to anyone especially teenagers because you don’t find a book about this topic in YA much. I think most teenagers need to know how to live with grief and guilt and this book can help you to understand them.  I gave this book 4.75 stars and I really do recommend it to you all. You all need to read this book, seriously.

City of Heavenly Fire by Cassandra Clare

Yes, it’s a review for City of Heavenly Fire. The book is finally here. I’ve waited so long for this day and I’ve read it all. I have so much to say about this book and honestly I can’t write a non-spoilery review for this book because I need to discuss everything in this book. So if you haven’t read the whole Mortal Instruments series and the whole Infernal Devices trilogy, here’s where you leave. But seriously read Cassandra Clares’ books because they are absolutely fabulous and they improve a lot. Don’t give up after City of Bones, they improved so much. Now go if you haven’t read it because so many spoilers. This review is going to be all over the place because there is so much to talk about.

Forgive Me, Leonard Peacock by Matthew Quick

Hey guys! Today, I’m going to be reviewing Forgive Me, Leonard Peacock by Matthew Quick. This was the first Matthew Quick book I read but I absolutely adored it! I will definitely be picking up The Silver Linings Playbook as soon as I can. Now let’s start with the overall non-spoiler review.

Going into this book after having read the summary, I was expecting it to be very depressing and at parts it was. However, the book as a whole was funny. Leonard was an amazing narrator with a lot of character and I really cared for him. This book focused on him and I loved that. It was weird to be in the mind of someone who wanted to commit suicide but I feel like this book made me more aware of the issue and made me aware that what I can do can affect someone a lot and I hope I never be mean to anyone in the way that some of the classmates were to Leonard. The supporting characters weren’t as well developed however except for Lauren and Herr Silverman. I wish we would have seen more of Walt or Baback. I also wish that we would have got to seen his mother a little bit more, I would have liked to see them happy at the end.

This book deals with a lot of major issues that we are all aware of but try to hide and I loved that. We try to disguise all the problems that teenagers go through but this book handled them straight on. This allowed us to see these issues first hand and in some way, feel what it’s like to go through them. It allowed us to see why people want to commit suicide and what happens to people who go through traumatizing events. Matthew Quick write brilliantly and it felt as if he really knew about the subjects in his book.The thing about this book is that Leonard is doing something that none of us really like and we don’t like to know about it but when you’re in his head, you can see where he’s coming from and why he wants to do that. It’s a scary thought but you start to understand why people commit suicide.

This book was slow to start with and I found the writing style to be odd to start with. The book had footnotes! Having read mainly YA, I’ve never really come across footnotes in books that I read for pleasure. Once you get into the book, however it will grip you and you will fall in love with Matthew Quick’s writing. I sure did!

Overall, I’d give this book 4 stars as I did really enjoy it but I just can’t bring myself to give it 5 stars, because it wasn’t one of my absolute favourites.  I do however recommend it to anyone and everyone! This book will really help you to understand the problems many young teenagers go through.

Panic by Lauren Oliver

I am determined to write a proper review today so I thought I’d choose the last book I finished which was Panic by Lauren Oliver. I am a big fan of Lauren Oliver’s writing having read her Delirium trilogy which I absolutely adore. However going into Panic I was a bit hesitant since it hadn’t had the best reviews. However, I did end up really loving it. Overall, I really enjoyed the writing and the plot and I would give it 4 out of 5 stars. Let’s start with the full spoiler-free review.

Panic is all about a series of tough challenges that are created to make the competitors, well panic. Reading about these challenges terrified me because they were all so scary! I couldn’t even begin to imagine doing them for myself. This may have been just me, but when they starting doing the challenges I was always confused with what they had to do. It might have been just me not paying enough attention but I kept saying “Why are they in water?” and “What is she doing in the road?”. Carrying on from that, the start of this book really confused me because it started out during a challenge but then went back in time to the start of the challenge. The first few pages were confusing but once I got past them, I was so engrossed and I didn’t want to put it down. The challenges made the book suspenseful and intense and I loved that!

Heather was an excellent main character. She was strong and she dealt with all the various issues she had to deal with throughout the whole novel. Participating in Panic, she went through quite a lot with the tough challenges. On top of that she also went through a lot of personal issues in her life. I really admired the fact that she could deal with both challenges at the same time and not go crazy.

Since it is a Lauren Oliver book, there was a range of amazing supporting cast such as Nat and Bishop. But the other main character was Dodge. Dodge I didn’t really understand and whenever it was one of his chapters, I was counting the pages until Heather’s next chapter. I probably would have enjoyed this book a lot more if it was just in Heather’s perspective. Dodge does go through a lot and he is probably the most determined to win but I just couldn’t connect to him. All of her characters had their own unique story and I loved that. Bishop was a great character and I honestly wish we knew more about him and I wish we explored him better. Actually I would have liked it, if the book was split between Heather’s and Bishop’s POV instead of Dodge’s because it would have given us as readers a sense of dramatic irony.

What I really enjoyed about this book was the lack of romance. Most YA books have a romance as a central story that keeps popping up everywhere but in Panic the romance was very much on the down low. There still was one but the book focused more on the challenges and I loved that. When I went into it, I wanted romance since I’d been reading romance for a while beforehand but there was simply no space for anymore romance in the story when most of the story is all about tough challenges.

For anyone who has read Requiem, you will probably have experienced the fact that Lauren Oliver isn’t exactly the best at writing endings to stories and this unfortunately showed in Panic. I found the ending to be a bit of a cop out and slightly rushed. If the book was a little bit longer, it could have been almost perfect.

Overall, I really enjoyed this novel and Lauren Oliver’s writing but I wanted a better ending! A solid 4 out of 5 stars to this novel and I definitely recommend it to anyone who likes action and suspense.

Disney Princess Book Tag

Hey! I was actually tagged to do the Disney Princess Book Tag by my amazing friend, Priya(check out her blog because she’s awesome) and I’m excited. I love Disney but I’m ashamed to admit that I haven’t seen a lot of Disney movies but I am still a fan. This tag was originally created by a booktuber named TurtleSympathy. I shall try to choose different answers to Priya but sometimes I couldn’t think of any other answers.

1) Anna and Elsa – A book with siblings in it.

For this category I immediately thought of My Life Next Door but then my mind wandered to my favourite book of this year, To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before. This book is a romance story as the name suggests but it also focuses very strongly on Lara Jean and her family. Lara Jean, Margot and Kitty are very close and they all look after their dad and they have an amazing family dynamic as a whole. If you haven’t read this book, I strongly suggest you do because I really do love this book.

2) Rapunzel – A book that made you emotional.

Now I am not one to cry in books but the book that bought me closest to tears was Clockwork Princess.If you have read this book you will know exactly why. That certain part in the middle with that certain character that I love very much makes me very very upset. Every time I read it I have to put the book down and stop myself from crying. Not that I would cry anyway because the tears will never actually come.

3) Merida – A book featuring a female warrior.

For this one  I had to pick Throne of Glass. Celaena is my favourite protagonist and maybe even my favourite fictional character. She is an assassin so of course she kicks ass. It’s hard to find a kick ass female lead in YA books but Celaena is one. She doesn’t need a guy to protect, guys need her to protect them.

4) Tiana – A book that has realist struggles.

For this I had to pick Eleanor and Park. This book will break your heart into little pieces because life gets in the way of such a perfect love story. This book has a lot of realist struggles and that’s why I adore about Rainbow Rowell. She doesn’t write perfect characters, she writes real characters. This book tackles the problems that a lot of people do face but I don’t want to tell you what they are because it might be spoilery.

5) Belle – A literary book or a classic.

I don’t read many classics. In fact the only one I’ve read is Little Women which we had to read last year in English but I didn’t particularly like. I decided to choose one of the books I’m currently reading which is The Great Gatsby. I’m reading this book very slowly but I am enjoying it.

6) Pocahontas – A nature book or a book by a naturalist.

This is probably the category I struggled with the most but I ended up choosing Shades of Earth. This is the last book in the Across the Universe trilogy so I can’t tell you what it’s about but I do remember nature taking a big role in it. Plus, the cover also reflects nature anyway so bonus points.

7) Jasmine – A book about the desire to be free.

I had to pick the Shatter Me series because all Juliette wants is to be free. She wants to be free of the government and of her power. I had to pick this because out of all of my book series this one stuck out as being about freedom. I needed to choose her just because of how much she wants to be free and how much she changes throughout the series. Also it’s an excuse to mention Warner…..

8) Mulan – A book featuring wars or battles.

I had to choose Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows because of the Hogwarts battle. Isn’t this one obvious? Do I really have to explain this? This was definitely one of my favourite battles in books because it was bloody amazing.

9) Ariel – A book featuring curiosity or learning.

Here is where I have to pick the same as Priya. I had to pick Harry Potter because Hermione is very curious and the series focuses a lot on learning new things. Harry learns a lot about the Wizarding World and about himself throughout all the books and I loved the fact that we were learning a long with him.

10) Cinderella – A book featuring manual labour.

I couldn’t think of a book that focuses on manual labour so let’s skip this one. But surely I got extra points for the Shades of Earth cover so that makes up for this.

11) Aurora – A book featuring sleep.

I also had to pick The Evolution of Mara Dyer here because if you have read that book you will know exactly why. I can’t tell you why because it’s spoilery so let’s move on.

12) Snow White – A book featuring one of the seven deadly sins.

For this one I was unsure but I ended up picking Vampire Academy . Lust is represented through Rose and Dimitri’s compulsion scene and envy is represented via Mia’s hatred for Lissa. Bonus points for getting two of them! I seriously love this series and I strongly recommend it.

13) Megara – A book featuring Greek Mythology.

The obvious choice for this would be Percy Jackson but as Priya chose that I decided to choose the book I’m currently reading which is Cruel Beauty. This book is a Beauty and the Beast retelling but in a world where they believe in the Greek Gods. There is a lot of Greek Mythology involved which I loved because I am a big fan of the Greek Gods. I love learning about them and I find it incredibly fascinating.

14) Alice – A book featuring nonsense or unusual words.

For this I wasn’t sure because I don’t read many books with unusual words but then I remembered The Maze Runner .This book is confusing to get into at first because it includes words such as shuck and you are a bit confused as to what they are saying. But once I got into it, I did really enjoy it. I know that many people don’t like it and that’s their opinion but I honestly did really enjoy the first one.

15) Maid Marian – A book with a canine.

For this I had to go with Priya again and choose Legend. I spent ages trying to find a book with a dog in that wasn’t Harry Potter but I could only think of Legend. In Legend, June has a dog named Ollie that she is close with as he is like family to her.

16) Nala – A book with a feline.

Okay it took me a while to think of one but eventually I remembered The House of Hades. I remember small Bob and I’m pretty sure small Bob was a cat. I think he was anyway. I remember loving small Bob and the fact that there was a cat in it.

Thank you for reading this very long tag post and I’m sorry for how long it is. See you next time with my next post whenever it will be.

Top 10 Influential Books Tag

Hey! I haven’t posted a book related thing in a while(well it seems that way to me) so I thought I’d do the Top 10 Influential Books Tag. This is a tag that has been going around the booktube for a while and it looked interesting. In the original version, you aren’t meant to explain why these books are influential to you but I thought I’d give you a brief explanation. These are in no particular order.

Cloud BustingMalorie Blackman:

This book was the one that really sparked my interest in books. This is a short book and every chapter is a poem and honestly if I read it now, it would take me about half an hour but I loved it so much. It made me see friendships in a different light and it affected me so much because without it, I probably wouldn’t have seen how important friendship is.

Harry Potter series- J.K. Rowling:

I think most readers my age would include this on their list because it was the series of our generation. Honestly without this series, I wouldn’t have been friends with any of my main friends now and I wouldn’t have started reading again properly. I have a lot to thank to J.K. Rowling and this series but I won’t bore you with those now.

The Hunger Games trilogy- Suzanne Collins:

Even thought Harry Potter got me back into reading, The Hunger Games got me into YA books and without YA, I don’t know what my life would be like. This series was the first series I read quickly. I read the whole first book in one night and I will always remember how much I loved this series the first time.

Divergent trilogy- Veronica Roth:

Even though the Hunger Games got me into reading YA, it lead me onto Divergent which was another series I devoured quickly. This series has so many morals in it and this is the series that got me into obsessively reading and I will always be eternally grateful.

The Mortal Instruments series- Cassandra Clare:

This series is the series that got me into watching Booktube videos and which then lead me on to creating this blog. I must admit, it’s not the best series out there but I love it and it’s again another series I devoured quickly.

The Infernal Devices trilogy- Cassandra Clare:

This is my favourite series of all time. I could again make a whole other post about this series and I might in the future. The amount of morals in this series is crazy. This is the first series that I extremely fangirled over and it lead me to where I am now. I can’t thank this series enough for what it has done to me.

The Fault In Our StarsJohn Green:

Everyone who has read this book will know how influential this book is. This taught me so much about love and friendship and just life in general. In fact my friend wrote a blog post about The Fault In Our Stars and about why she loved it and I agree with everything she said, so click here to read it.

FangirlRainbow Rowell:

Honestly I talk about this book so much. If you want to know more about why I love this book, click here to go see my review of it. Mainly this book taught me that it is okay to be who I am because there will always be people there who will love me no matter what.

Eleanor and ParkRainbow Rowell:

As well as TFIOS, this book also taught me about love and also about how hard life can get. Even though life can get hard, there will always be someone there to help you and they can make all the difference in the world.

The Perks of Being A WallflowerStephen Chobsky:

This is another book that taught me about how hard life can get and that having people there can make a huge difference. Honestly, this book changed my opinion about so much. I can’t even explain how much I love this book.

The explanations are very brief because it’s hard to explain why a book changes you.  I love reading and I think these books are the reason why I am who I am today. I tag Priya to do this tag.

-S

The Geography of You and Me by Jennifer E.Smith

The Geography of You and MeHey!Today I’m going to review The Geography of You and Me by Jennifer E.Smith. This book hasn’t been published yet, it will be published on April 15th, but I requested this book has an e-arc on netgalley and when I got approved I was so excited. I’ve only read one of her books beforehand, This is What Happy Looks Like, but I loved that one and this one sounded so cute and lovely!

For those of you who don’t know, this book follows two main characters, Lucy and Owen, who on the night when New York loses its power they get stuck in an elevator together. Once they are rescued, they spend the rest of the night together but then the power goes back on and they go back to their own lives. Lucy moves to Edinburgh and Owen moves west with his father. Their relationship carries on through the sharing of postcards and emails, even though they are moving even further and further apart.

Now lets move on to my review:

I found Owen to be a believeable main character. Him and his father had gone through some troubles and they aren’t in the best financial situation and they were going through a lot of problems. Owen had a lot to deal with within himself and had to make tough decisions because of his situation but he was realistic. He was incredibly close to his father and they had a great family dynamic.

Lucy was the girl with a rich family who are incredibly busy. Even though they have all the money they could want and her parents travel a lot, they aren’t a close family. Her parents are hardly at home and Lucy obviously feels left out. Even thought Owen was more realistic, I related to Lucy a lot more because she loves to read and I felt like I could understand her more.

Their relationship was sweet and you can see that they care for each other. I liked the fact that they didn’t think they were in love with each other after the first night, they just couldn’t get the other off of their heads and that made it even more realistic. What I didn’t like with this book is the ending. I felt like it ended too abruptly and I would have liked to have seen more of the characters and their relationship.

Overall it was a very good book, it was just too short! My rating would be 4 out of 5. Definitely read this book if you enjoy contemporary.

Dystopian Worlds:Delirium

Now, I have read quite a few dystopians in my life and honestly all of them take place in some pretty scary worlds! I thought I’d do a series on some of the scariest dystopian worlds and why they are so scary! I’m going to start with the Delirium world which was created by Lauren Oliver, because honestly it’s a unique world.

This world is based on the concept of love. The government in this series have convinced the civilians that love is bad and it’s a disease. They have made it so that once you turn 18, you get an injection to make you lose the ability to love. Now this stops all types of love;motherly love, sisterly love etc. It’s a crazy concept and honestly I don’t know how it would go down in the real world. If some world leader was to just declare love a bad thing, I don’t think everyone will just agree. This is show in the books through the resistance. But honestly in real life, I don’t see anyone agreeing. I would really like to see Lauren Oliver write a novel or series about how this came to be. How did anyone actually agree to that concept? All of the people I know would be part of the resistance, especially me because I can’t imagine living in a world where I can’t feel my mothers love. As described by Lena in the books, it was wrong to hug your children and sing and dance with them and most of my happy memories are with my mother. I can’t imagine not having those moments because honestly they were amazing parts of my life.

Also I don’t know how happy I’d be with the whole choosing your partner aspect of it. It’d just be hard because honestly you can’t know how well suited two people are just by looking at some common hobbies. I’m sure there are many guys out there who enjoy reading and watching TV but that doesn’t make us suited. I wouldn’t trust the government with my future because I could end up with someone who is just terrible but hides it(like Hana) or you could end up with someone who lied on the paper, because not every tells the truth. The idea that you get put with someone else really scares me.

Another thing I wouldn’t enjoy is being segregated from the opposite gender. Now I go to an all girls school, so I spend most of my time around girls but in primary school , some of my main friends were in fact guys. I’m not really sure how much I would enjoy being constantly around girls all the time because honestly girls can get very bitchy. I would end up being like Hana, rebelling and going to parties because honestly life in that world sucks. I would honestly want to know what it would be like to go to parties and listen to songs that were banned, because not everyone likes the same things.

Lauren Oliver wrote a beautiful series about a scary world that I could never imagine living in. In fact, I don’t think this will ever happen and I hope it doesn’t. Most dystopian worlds aren’t likely to ever happen and honestly I think the Delirium world is the world I’d hate the most. Most dystopian worlds involve a lot of fighting and hatred towards the government(as Delirium later develops into) but this one scares me because everyone just agrees with it and there isn’t much violence but the world still freaks the hell out of me.

Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell

People always see me reading books around school and a lot of people don’t know me that well, so to start a conversation they usually ask me what my favourite book is. In the past, I have never been able to answer it properly because I’ve never had a definite favourite, I love so many books and it’s hard to just choose one. Also this person would also judge me based on the book I say, so I always chose carefully. But ever since last September, the answer to this question was clear. Fangirl is my favourite book. Then of course, a lot of people who I talk to have never heard of the book so they ask why I like it so much. I still do not know how to answer this question, because there are many reasons as to why I love this book. I recently discovered that my goodreads review isn’t exactly great because I didn’t know what to write. So this is my first proper review as to why I love this book. I’ll try to make it as non-spoilery as possible but just to make sure only read on if you have read the book.